- rant about life -

[demonlurking]

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Ranty life post to follow, feel free to skip if you just don't care.

Tonight is the last night of my weekend, tomorrow night I go back to work for another week of drudgery. I haven't posted a lot recently, mainly because I simply haven't felt I had time. I spend about 12-14 hours every workday either at work, or in preparation or recovery. And then I have to sleep, and I'm always more tired than I expect and have trouble waking up. I then have three days off (currently Saturday, Sunday, and Monday). Since I work nights it can be hard to plan to get things done that require "normal business hours". Honestly a lot of things _have_ to be done during the day on Monday, and with certain things in my life that leaves about three days a month to try to schedule way too many things.

I could really use a better job. I have been applying pretty much constantly over the last three years an gotten very little response. I know I have gaps in my resume and many of my previous employers at this point cannot provide references since they've ceased to exist in any functional way. I had one prospective interviewer who was completely unwilling to work with my work schedule to schedule an interview and eventually cancelled my application.

I need another miracle job, like Telerama, or Pitt.

One of the biggest hurdles right now is that I cannot afford to take a contract job. Living by myself means that I can't take the chance that in six months I won't have any income. And the last time I had a contract job that ended suddenly, for some reason it wasn't eligible for unemployment when it was over. So I was left with zero income. And that doesn't pay rent.

Also, given other life events, I need good health insurance. What I have now is adequate, but not great.

OK, that's enough, I don't know if there's really any point to making this post, but it gets it off my chest. To those of you who made it this far, thanks for listening.

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